Hi Ernst,
It is amazing how much we self sabotage, and how deeply subconscious or unconscious this act is. Is this basically because of the fear of stepping into Rahu, or is it because of the Avasthas of the planets, or both?
Its because of the Rakshasas, which are the protectors. We get hurt, the unconsciousness wants to keep us alive, so it protects us. We stayed alive. Now we live with those protections in place all the time and we are miserable as a result. The unconsciousness does not care if we are happy, it just wants to keep us alive, so from its point of view, what worked to protect us as children, will keep us alive now as well. So the unconscious wants to maintain those patterns as they have proven effective. These protective measures are built into the parent and child minds, by using our adult mind we can reeducate them so that we can live and not just stay alive.