I have both thw bondage and kemadruma yoga in my chart

My chart has both the bondage and kemadruma yogas like that one girl .

I've already been going through really tough time praying and hoping for things to get better or even just getting a hope to carry on but now i don't know.

This makes alot of sence actually because i got left behind the most in life after working the hardest and no matter how much effort i put out there seems to be no outcome to it.

Now i just don't know anything, if it's always gonna be like this then i don't wanna suffer extra in life and looking back in the future and regretting living even after knowing it isn't gonna get better ever..