There is a journey abroad that I need to undertake in the coming weeks but I've been extremely apprehensive about it. I've been dreading it for the last 3 months, trying to figure out if I should do what I "have" to (go) or do what I want to (not go). I keep fearing that something very bad will happen if I go - injury or death. That being said, I've been a fearful person for the past few years (due to trauma), and especially so since Saturn entered my 8th house a year ago. Natal Rahu in the 8th doesn't help.
I decided to do a simple check with the cards. The Ace of Spades card keeps coming up - the first time it fell out on its own, the second time two cards fell out, Ace of Spades again together with my Birth card - 9 of clubs.
My intuition is telling me this is a sign not to go, but considering all my phobias, I really don't know if I'm just adapting the interpretation to align with my fears.
Would anyone care to offer a perspective on the AS card coming up in regards to a journey?
Thank you in advance 🌺
@ernst thank you so much, Ernst!
By the way I'm currently reading the Great Pain Deception book, it's super helpful thank you for recommending it to us. Finally starting to realize all the guilt and anger I've been suppressing through the years.
the ace of spades also relates to the moon card in the major arcana.
Ace of Spades is the little plant breaking through the ground, so it´s a card that reveals secrets. As Ernst says: What you are telling is very much an Ace of Spades experience. I just thought I should explain why. Ace of Spades is one of my dearest cards, personally, since it´s my Moon card. Five of Clubs has the tendency to be struck down by life over and over again, and every time Ace of Spades is bringing us back to life again. Each time a little wiser, hopefully, since Ace of Spades is dwelling in the darkness and breaks out into the light.
Staffan
@staffan thank you for your input! Yes, I can definitely resonate with that. Working on past issues, seeing things from a new perspective, feeling a renewed motivation and drive, recognizing patterns 🙂 it's good! (and not easy, of course) And in the end I made some changes to my trip the way I wanted. As a Virgo Ketu person, sometimes you just get exhausted from doing what you're "supposed to do".