yes, that is how it works. All these things that happen are life being an omen of how we are not okay with ourselves. 46 and 47 were so brutal for me. Shockingly brutal. And it was all resolved by learning to be okay with myself and therefor allowing me to have a better relationship with myself.
Was that bike accident possibly one of those omens?
47 was very difficult age for my parents as well (for their friends and family also)
At that time in 1994, the solstice was transiting the galactic plane. And I was going through a stormy Sa/Ra dasha period as an early teenager. One of my parents was in their Ketu MD during their Ke maturity (and their Ketu is exactly conjunct my Moon, and my Rahu is exactly conjunct their Sun!)
There were illnesses, surgeries, job loss, arguments, etc. They definitely did not seem okay with themselves. And it was all brought out to the surface by those events, and by what was going on with me as well.
the first thing that happens when a person starts to be okay with themselves is that they change some idea about how they have been behaving, some thought that has been suppressing their natural response and feelings about life is changed. At that point a bunch of feelings will start to get purged and this can take years to purge. Feelings that the mind would not even let the person experience, a lifetime of them, and they all start coming to the surface and they also impact the body as htey leave the consciousness. I felt like i was pmsing for 2 years and i had little energy and my knees and hips hurt and I couldn't walk far. I had just bought all new really high end very nice backpacking gear and was never able to use it cause I couldn't walk more than 2 miles. It was an amazing ride of purification. so its hard to judge from the outside.
@ernst Sounds like fun. I can hardly wait ????
Actually similar to my Mer and Sat maturities + ever since then. (Sat is lord of my Ketu and Mer is closest to Ketu.)